Nowadays, I’m just tired and stressed out from the countless bullshit that goes on in my life that I tend to close myself off and ignore everyone. Including the people I care about. It’s nothing personal, People just have those days where all they want to do is shut down and escape reality.
You’d think after a friendship like ours you would have some kind of respect for me. And if you wanted to hate me after everything then fine, not that this was all so long ago and I apologized to you 1000x, or anything. But don’t sit there and act like were okay, and say that you miss me, meanwhile I hear that you’re telling people you “secretly hate me”. Honestly, grow a pair and say your shit. Hate me, but don’t be fake because I’m not buying it and neither is anyone else.
For your information, I actually do. You’re the reason why I’m hurting inside. Your doings, the distance between us, everything. And yet, I ask myself why I still hang on? Well I have an easy answer to that. Hope. Yet there’s practically nothing left to fight for, I still do. Because I care.